Tomorrow

They said the happy girl came back. They express they all like me happy as before.  

I came back? I am not sure, or I am sure not. I did not know what was  grief before, and what was loneliness. At that time, I was really happy everyday. However, for a very long time, I have not known what is happiness. I feel my heart was empty. Do you know that feeling? I don’t know what I am living and working for every day. Maybe you meet a happy girl, but that is just her face, not her heart. 

What did I lose at all? What do I want? And what am I waiting for? …

When I saw Michael again at the airport, I was really excited with his attractive smile. Last August, when he left our company, I felt very sentimental. I was afraid that I would not see him any more in the next year, because I had ever planned to resign from this company. Now, I saw him again! His charm is just as of old.
He is the boss of Classic Toy, our biggest customer. I am admiring him not only for his handsome and his smile, but his very hard working spirit, and his grace of gentelmen. I learned a lot from him, and I am very happy to work with him.
Things always like this. When you think you got something, maybe you are losing it; from another side, perhaps you think you lose it, but you get it finally…

Yesterday, I went to book store and wanted to buy a Bible. But i could not find it by myself. So I checked with the salesperson. He said the Bible is forbidden to be sold in the book store. How depressed it is! I think Bible is very magnificent food for thought. Why the book store doesn’t sell it? I don’t know if I will follow the God, I want to read the Bible, and clean my spirit.

How great I am! I just come back to this world from my dream today. Sleeping, eating every day. a life like a pig! No work, no telephone, I like!
In the dream, I saw my yearning bosom friend, and he bought me a sugar-coated haws on a stick(冰糖葫芦）. Do you remember what you said, when you earn US dollars, you will give me a sugar-coated haws on a stick. Please don’t forget that. I will wait for the day.

Dream is always beautiful. Waking up, you, alone! Life must go on. My next job is writing a resignation letter and hunting a new job.

白天，在家闷了一天，到傍晚，终于决定走出屋门。

沐在晚春的微风和傍晚的夕照里，格外的舒服。散步，在我曾经徘徊的那段小路，仍然笼着一丝伤感。风，还是吹散了眼中的薄雾。望着被斜阳拉长了的纤细的身影，被风吹舞的长发… 一个人，有什么关系？寂寞让我如此美丽！

悠闲地，走了很远。站在天桥上，望着下面高速公路上两边往来的车，想起很多年前，我只是在北京过暑假。夏天的晚上，和姨妈站在城市的天桥上，也是喜欢看两个方向往来的车，这个方向是黄色的一片灯光，而另一个方向闪烁着红色的星星。纷纷繁繁的，好热闹！那个时候，是很向往城市纷繁的夜晚，热闹的生活的。而现在，却感觉不到这些与我有什么样的关联！

我一个人走进商场，我的MP3还在和商场的背景音乐争抢我的耳朵。我喜欢一个人逛街。可以把眼睛和心思都投入在喜欢的商品上，而别无旁骛，也尽管为所欲为，不必在乎别人的看法。想看什么看什么，想呆多久也没人管。喜欢试穿漂亮的衣衣，尽管有时候价格高得我根本不可能买。喜欢在试衣镜里看着自己美丽的身材。又自恋了，不好意思！

往回走，天已经全黑了。我又在那条熟悉的小路上，悠闲的，散步，随着MP3，和着那首《云上太阳》，感觉心很安静：云上太阳，他总不改变，虽然小雨洒在脸上，云上太阳，他总不改变…

感谢寂寞，寂寞让我回过头来看一看自己，让我有机会欣赏自己。感谢寂寞，寂寞让我如此美丽！

Stay home by myself. Sleeping and watching TV. So lonely!
Outside, spring is lovely. Sunshine and wind are very attractive.Why am I always sorrow?

I don’t know how to spend my lonely holiday!